well i thought about the army...

so, after creating this blog and sort of thinking about who will actually read this, i have come to a few realizations about the reality of this thing. and it goes a little something like this:

1. i know for a fact that i am going to get in trouble for this. because this is a pseudo-diary and those are usually reserved for things that either bother you or are on your mind, thats most likely what im going to be talking about. and some of the people that read this are going to know enough about whats going on in my life that theyre going to know who im talking about. and when they see that im either talking about a) them, b) their friend(s) or c) their baby's momma, theyre going to be pissed when i say that i dont like some decision they made or some action they took. and ya know what? sucks for you. granted this thing will be semi-censored [i believe i had mentioned that before], there are definitely situations that i am going to talk about that the people involved will know who they are. and if you [being the people i fail to name but mention by situation] have a problem with me talking about the situation, you are more than welcome to say something to me. but that doesnt mean i'll change my mind or change my post. its the nature of the beast. granted its not that im using this to "talk shit" about people behind their backs. which is why i wont say names. but if you are perceptive enough to know that when i say "this person i know" actually means "michael", just know that everyone doesnt know what you do and its in no way a direct attack.

which also means that there's a shitload i'd like to talk about, but know it will get me in way too much trouble. and personally, i hate drama and dont really want to deal with that bullshit. you [the general "you"] know if you do things that hurt others or are just not right. if you have a problem getting called out, then dont do those things. my promise is that i will not use names unless absolutely necessary. cuz its not about turning others against said-people, its about my reaction to situations that may or may not come about. and also about what other people think, which is why a lot of questions will be posed. its not about bashing these people, its about how i feel about the things they do and then what others think [others being those who may comment on said postings]. got it? good.

II. i know that most people read these things to either find out about whats going on in someone's life, to maybe escape from work for 5 minutes or so, or just because of some general interest. which means that while im up here on my soapbox from time-to-time talking shit about this or that, i am probably going to come off as arrogant, egotystical, and self-centered. well, maybe not self-centered, but definitely self-richeous. and to be honest, thats not my goal in this thing either. i realize that everything i say is an opinion and people may agree or disagree with that opinion [granted those that disagree are wrong]. im kidding. relax. point is, im not saying that im right. im also not saying im wrong. im not trying to tell anyone who to be, or how to act, or what kind of cheese to put on your avocado sandwich. or if spicy mustard goes well with that combo or not. all im saying is that this is my opinion and try to have people see my side for a minute or two. and "my side" is that britney spears is a skank. so is condelezza rice.

three. i hate the word "blog". that word is about as smooth as "poop". not even. at least "poop" is the same backwards and forwards, which makes it kinda cool [i forget what they call words that do that... palindromes?]. its the kind of word that makes you feel like youre going to vomit when you say it. i dunno, i just think it sucks.

fore. i do not expect anyone to care about anything i say or think. granted, you may. but i am not that into myself that i expect people to read and listen to what i say. its a blog for godsake. goddamnit i hate that word. but yeah, its an online frickin' journal. its not something one lives one's life by. thats called a belief system, and we call that "dance-dance revolution" around these parts. so yeah, the point of this is to say that im not trying to change anyone's life. im just sort of getting things out there for my sake if others want to participate, cool. it not, whatevah. i do what i want. im gonna throw this out there, and if you like it you can keep it. if not, you can just throw it right back at me...

so, i think thats about it for now. if i think of anything else, it'll make for another entry so i can stall and put-off entering something that actually matters. wait, didnt we just establish that none of this matters? thaaaaaaaaaats right.

"in this time of introspection, on the eve of my election..."