i know youre sick, wish you were healing...

so, there are a few things in my life recently that make me realize im getting old. and no, its not the hemroid cream or the 'ensure' chocolate shake or the 'centrum silver' vitamins or the super-awesome walker that i use to get from the bathroom to the couch during the commercials in my soap operas. although i do love my soaps. [thats a joke. damn, do i have to spell everything out for you assholes?] anywho. the thing that sucks about getting old that im talking about [today at least] is that being sick SUCKS.

ok, sure. there's no genius in that statement. we all know being sick sucks. fevers, coughing up green shit, feeling like crap, etc. but i remember when i was younger and sick, my reaction was something like: "damn it, im sick... but hell yeah im sick. i dont have to go to school. i get to watch 'saved by the bell' reruns and drink ginger ale allllllllllll day". now? well, because i am currently sick i will give those who care a rundown of what went through my head: "im sick? fuck. i need to go to work to make money. and now i cant drink beer? shit."

so, this is how it gets? i mean, sure; i have sick days i can take. and in fact, i already took one for this current bout of allergies kicking the crap out of my sinuses. the only reason i didnt take two is because i have a laptop, so ive been home working while being sick. which, by the way, sucks as well. but lets not get off track. the other reason i dont want to take sick days is because those are also my vacation days. or "paid time off" [PTO for short]. #1 goal of michael working during the year: make as much money as i can. #2 goal: preserve PTO days. that way i can use those as vacation days. makes sense, right? of course it does. so this sucks, because it makes me 'want' to work when i feel like crap. i say 'want' [note the quotes] because of course i dont want to work, i want to preserve my PTO days; and to do that i have to work. and if i cant be at work then i am now motivated to work from home, that way i dont lose these days. and that sucks.

now is the time of responsibilities, and i dont like it. i dont like it one bit. i want to be able to sit at home, drink lots of soda [honestly, beer doesnt sit well when im sick], and watch all the crap i have tivo'd but never get a chance to watch because i am so busy. and yes, i could have the tv on while i work, but that doesnt cut it. trust me. i have tried. and then tried again. you inevitably miss something, then have to rewind it. or you just let it go, and then the show [namely family guy or aqua teen hunger force] isnt quite as funny as im sure it is if i could watch it uninhibited by work. damn you work for getting in the way of my tivo programs.

so, i worked today at home and didnt watch tv, and it totally sucked. and thats how i know im getting old. cuz instead of sleeping or watching ass-loads of tv, i worked. at home. while i was sick. still am sick. point is, getting older sucks.

"...so worse for the wear"