"the only thing worse than not knowing..."

lets talk about a subject that is applicable every single day of everyone's life: history of behavior. or, if youre british: history of behaviour. either way. british or not, people have certain habits and/or decisions they make on a consistent basis with which you can predict future behavior or verify past behavioral discrepancies. when 'they' say "people cant change", that is probably about 99.9836% true. people dont change. some people are good at suppressing their inner desires for an extended period of time, but eventually they "have a relapse" or they "give in to their inner demons" or they "eat 100 snickers and barf all over themselves" or they "tripped and fell on his penis"; you know, the usual wednesday afternoon activities.

***side note: i love sante fe black bean chedder dip. and hint-of-lime tostitos. they are delicious. yumma-dum-dumms.***

and this pertains to all behavior in general. spoiled-brat behavior, catty behavior, drunken behavior, common-sense behavior [or lack there-of], competitive behavior, lazy behavior... you know, everything.

what i thought i was going to do is take certain examples from people i have witnessed and show how they have not, and more importantly will not, change their behavior. in retrospect, this would take way too much time and energy that i dont have. im busy, and have a life. i could have talked 'hypothetically' about certain behaviors and examples, naming them things like "person j", "person k", and "person l" and then talked about how what they do is either immature, hypocritical, hilarious, pathetic, or just plain redonkulous. that is a word. and i'd throw little hints in there as to who the real person was. and eventually that person [if they read my blog] or someone else would figure out who these hypothetical people were, and then they'd get all pissed off that i was talking shit about them. even if this shit was 100% true and totally founded. and backed by really good, and really factual evidence. and then they'd try and make me feel bad. and then i'd probably feel bad cuz i hate upsetting other people no matter how big of an asshole/bitch they are to me or those i care about. and i dont like feeling bad. i like being happy.

and how do i know this? well, its just what i do. its what ive done in the past and what im predisposed to doing in the future. and i'll spare everyone the "Wilhelm Wundt, William James, and B.F. Skinner" version of human behavior [think fathers of psychology]; but my point is that if you were to think about what i'd do in this blog when talking about something, its pretty well laid out up there [arrow pointing to paragraph above] . but i am changing my behavior. and not writing in that fashion. or at least, im trying like a mofo not to break down and start. god knows there is a 99.9836% chance the next entry is back to the usual format. but for now...

"...is you thinking that i dont know"