"confidence in you is confidence in me..."

i am tired. which is what i want to talk about. i love sleep. boy, do i love sleep. and not only because i enjoy activities that are directly connected to sleep [oh yeah, im talking about making the sex] but also because i think i am the kind of person who needs more sleep than others. like, i would say i need a MINIMUM of 6 hours of sleep. 5 1/2 hours; not gonna cut it. 8 hours, ideal. 10 hours, effing awesome. 12 hours. now im just getting lazy. but what i find weird is that some people can function [and i define function as work and be productive and not look like a zombie and not by all hyped up on caffiene or sugar or heroin] with less than 4 hours of sleep on a regular basis.

to which i have to say, "wow". on 4 hours of sleep the only things i could do are a) go back to sleep, or b) well...there is no "b" per sae. i think thats about it. 4 hours of sleep and i am rendered useless. back to bed for me.

and im not talking about those people that only sleep for 2 or 3 hours, and then look like complete shit the next day and cant function and their work is crap and they smell and look like that havent showered in a week. i do not call that "functioning". i call that barely existing. im talking about like, NYC wall street brokers who are either working, drinking, doing cocaine, or working while drinking and doing cocaine. and they get about 2 hours of sleep a night, and then back to their job. not that im saying they wouldnt do a better job with actual sleeping, but they can function without it.

let me tell you a funny story about this. ok, its not funny. in fact, as of this moment i dont have a story to tell. so lemme think about it for a minute....
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nothing. nothing so far. hmm....
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.... yeah, i got nothing. well, no funny stories per sae. i mean, i did just take the redeye back from california and get into boston at 9am, whereupon i got home, took a shower and went right to work. and then had to work on about 3 1/2 hours of sleep. i started crashing around 3pm, was in-and-out at my desk around 4:30pm. that sucked. but thats not a funny story, more like "see, i told you so. i need sleep".

**that last section was in no means a complaint about the events leading up to or my decision to take the redeye back from CA. seriously the best birthday weekend i've ever had in my life. everything was awesome. it just sucked having to go to work after that.

so. yeah. here's what i think; mandatory nap time. dude, nobody ever wanted to nap when you were 5 years old. and if you did, you were a genius. i think we should have beds at work [or comfy couches] so that everyone after lunch can sleep for 45 min. i would gladly stay at work until 5:45pm every day if we had 45 min of nap time. and i dont think anyone would complain. unless you were an employer. then you'd be kinda pissed. but here's the thing: if you [as an employer] would give 1 hour lunches but just extend the work day 30 min, then your employees could choose how to spend their lunch hour. eat for 30 min, sleep for 30 min. eat for 15, sleep for 45. whatever. and i work basically 8 1/2 hours a day at least so the only thing changing for people like me is i get to nap. hell yes.

so come on people, lets get it done. i need sleep.

"...is confidence in the fire i speak."