"careful now, you'll hurt yourself..."

so, i want to move. no surprise there. also, no surprise that i started a paragraph (which is more like a stream of conciousness) with the word "so". that tends to happen a lot for me. want to know why? no? well, fuck you. then stop reading. dick. anyways, i think the reason is beacuse i think about things a lot before i say them. and then when i finally come out or write the thoughts down, i approach it with a "so here's what ive been thinking" attitude or a "so, this is what i've come up with". at least, that's how it sounds in my head. but it just falls out onto paper and/or html style sheets as "so". but anyways.

the deal with me wanting to move is that i'm not happy. not happy with boston. not happy with my job. not happy with myself. and i feel that moving is a good way to start over. its also a good way to incur a whole lotta debt. which seems to be about to happen to me, as money and my banking accounts don't seem to be getting along lately. crap.

but where to move to? somewhere close? somewhere where i know people, so as to not be all alone? somewhere where i know nobody so that i can "start a-fresh with nothing holding me down"? well, if i knew that answer i wouldn't be asking the nobody-who-reads-my-blog. damn. i can't do all the work around here.

so it seems to me the options are as follows (with reasons why and why not next to'ye olde pluses and minuses' as they were called back during the gold rush):

california: + beautiful weather, beautiful women, relaxed attitude, everyone tells me i'd fit in and/or look like i'm from there, great ultimate scene, great music scene
- expensive, far away from family/home, don't know anybody out there, i'd miss the fall weather

denver: + beautiful weather, close to the mountains, cheaper than boston, young crowd, pretty good ultimate scene, good music scene, outdoors stuff to do all the time
- kinda expensive, far away from family/home, dno't know anyone out there (although nate, you should come with), tough to get a job i kinda imagine

virginia: + warm weather, good ultimate scene, could buy a place with my little brother, i have friends from college in the area
- not as much of a eutopic destination as, say, CA or CO, humidity, don't have any connections to get a job, if i move south i'd much rather go to somewhere in NC

charlotte: + warm weather, decent ultimate scene, good music scene, have lots of college friends around, cheap cost of living, up-and-coming city
- humidity, tough to get a job down there, far from my family, not so sure i want to do NC again and would like to try some place new

toronto: + awesome city (or so i hear), cheaper than boston, potentional to have a good job, good ultimate scene, very euro
- far from home, don't know anyone up there, cold, no "music scene" to speak of

so yeah, who knows. who the hell knows. i guess the reason the top cities have more +'s and -'s would be that a) im getting tired of writing this post, and b) i know more/fantasize more about going to the first cities more. one things for sure though; my time in boston is coming to an end.

"careful now, you'll hurt someone else."